last post in utp

hari ini hari terakhir. ni last post before aku cabut komputer and pack evrything. baru lepas hantar hardbound, serah kad matrik, and send clearance form to registry. sebelum tu aku pegi lunch dengan maryam, basuh kereta dan we talk and say goodbye to each other. sedih gile. lepas ni nk kne ckp goodbye to semua kawan-kawan juga. sekali lagi sedih. tapi kene kuatkan hati sebab semua org pun kene hadapi situasi yang sama. 

sebelum balik, aku nk cakap terima kasih kepada semua ats segala jasa, budi dan kebaikan korang kepada aku. dan juga nak mintak maaf atas segala kecik hati, kasar bahasa dan keterlanjuran kepada semua. kenangan dan pengalaman selama lima tahun untuk diri aku berakhir petang ni bila aku gulingkan tayar kete kuar dari gate. kejap lg aku dh nak balik. terlalu banyak yang aku nk tulih sebenarnya, tapi masa tak mengizinkan. aku janji, bila aku dh settle down kat rumah nanti, aku tulih banyak2 ok. 

ok la. btul2 nak off komputer. selamat tinggal semua. semoga jumpa lagi lepas ni. keep on texting and call and mailing me. and do let me know if there is any updates on yourself. good luck to everyone. may our future shines and full of happiness.

p/s: oh hari sungguh panas, dh penat mengangkat barang-barang..mahu bertolak sebentar lagi..byebye semua

we will go to last bbq party

we just finished preparing stuff that we will bring our last bbq tonight. we had macam-macam, from meat to chicken, from prawns to squids, honeydew to corn to potatoes. it was all been packed up and we just need to wait for the logistics crew to return with the grill set etc. then we set to drive to teluk batik.

last night they (nas, mede and halim) visitied tesco and put our money there. in return, we get full loads of groceries and ingredients for our supply today. and it cost them 350 malaysian bucks. plus another 10 bucks collected today. thats a lot, and imagine the quantity of food that we will crunch and swallow tonight. gile hound la..

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its tomorrow when we will depart, letting our legs walk to our own path. its hard for me to see tomorrow, but it will definitely come and we need to face it whatever it takes. i will write more. i am sad and hurt because of this separation. but i cant really put my feelings here, because i had to hold my ego not to let my tears run. huh!

gloomy and slow

i am counting days before everything reach the edge, the last page of another chapter in my life journal.  its just a matter of time before i can make the call to the end of my life as a university student. once i step out from the gate, it remarks a new beginning to another stories, challenges and futures. 

it is hard for me to call for a wrap after this 5 years entitling as a college/tertiary student. there are a lot of happiness, sorrow, hardship, hatred, memories and life changing experiences i gained here. here i learned what is the true meaning of friendship. it is not as simple as having somebody and you know his/her name, then you call them friend, but it is more than that. friend is someone you can’t bare not takling to them, you’ll miss their faces and smiles, and you regret and sad when you hurt them. 

this university life potray the real meaning of friendship. i had a lot of friends which i treasure soo damn much, until to the level i can’t express it with words and voices. we had few days left to be spend together, and i can’t imagine myself being by my own after this, without friends who stand before me and hold me when i fall.

we went out tonight. dinner, jokes and chat as usual. and the places we went also is the ordinary. but the mood is very different. i can sense that. we talk like always, but the tone is lowering down. we make jokes as before, but the laughes is somehow bitter. i dont know why. we always quarrel over stupid things previously, but now we let other say whatever that wish to say, without have the guts to provoke back. its gloomy. maybe it is not just me who felt that. others too. mere human being we are. we meet and leave. 

i cant continue. i am sure tears will easily run over my goldfish cheek if i let this feeling takes over me. i need to be strong. talking about friendship will have no end. so i’ll stop here. and to those friends i love and care soo much, please don’t make this hard on us ok. i love you dear buddy. sorry for everyhing.

syiokk nye penang

it was a trip. he described it as gateaway. i defined it as a farewell vacation. and he may think it was a honeymoon. whatever it’s called, i concluded that the penang trip was the best ever trip i had.

we cabut that saturday morning without telling anyone. it’s my intention to sneak out qietly because i know some will feel unhappy if i didnt invite them to join me. sorry dear all. the trip was not properly planned. we only triggerr the idea few days before that, and within flash, we already in penang.

ok2 about the trip. main objective: food, photo shooting, jalan-jalan tempat yg bnyk crowd, and meet fareez’s cousin.

time: 5 am – 5 am

food: sotong kangkung, sotong bakar, kerang bakar, laksa penang, lai chee kang, ABC @ padang kota, cendol pulut, assorted jeruk @ chowrasta market, nasik campur awet muda @ usm, indian sweets and popiah @ little india, etc.

places visited: rumah p ramlee (it was damn nice), teluk bahang and batu feringghi (the beaches), little india and penang peranakan mansion ( worth rm10 tickets for the tour), usm (we met kak nor, payeh’s cousin, pusing2 usm, mandi, solat etc), komtar, perangin mall, chowrasta market (open market that sells jeruk, goodies and some oleh-oleh penang), padang kota (where we ate like garbage truck), clock tower (at the middile of a road in the middle of the night), masjid lebuh acheh (last stop before heading back to tanah besar).

it was totally fun. but i think we should plan properly next time. we repeatedly lost because of the confusing road in the island. although we have map, but the map itself confused us. haha. and the traffic was horrible too. most of the time we spend was in the red candy, waiting the front car to crawl bit by bit at a time. tension bangat jam kat penang. but okay lah, we still have fun.

ok here’s the real deal. browse at this mellow site for pictures and more stories. and thank you fareez (my crew) for making this possible.

chow rasta~

(read: not chow phraya anymore occay azman!!)

kami yg kacak selepas exam

maroon-peach-blue-purple-caramel

just after the last paper. there are six of us taking the paper, but hafifi didn’t wore baju sepasang. and syuk left early. tinggallah 4 orang budak auto, plus fareez yang habis paper pagi tu juga.

irc tempat kami study. we will miss those sofas

kak, kami nk pulang buku…dh xnak pinjam lg dh..sbb kami dh grad!!!

posing maut depan chancellor hall

kami..

sedih, sbb dh kene mula ucap selamat tinggal….~!

rasminya graduated

today 21 november 2008, mohd nazrin bin zaini was officially entitled as a graduates engineer

i just finished my very last paper, advanced vehicle dynamics this morning. it was okay and i can aim for good grades in this paper. sharp at 1215 i stepped out from the multi purpose hall utp, and it marks the end of my sixteen years of study as a formal student. yes of course we are life-long student, thus it makes me one, but as a student who attend classes and do homeworks, i finished here.

last tuesday, i had my final year project presentation. it was not really a success as i described it, but who cares. as long as i had dealt with it, gone through the bombardment of questions and tonnes of twisting answers, i am totally over it. now i am happy and glad that i had finished it. i can get rid of the burden that haunted me this year through.

and today was eventful too. i’ve got a call this morning while driving to the hall from one of the junior in my MAS group. a friend name senur (as what we called him) has passed away in an accident in front of utp. i was shock and distracted. my heart told me to visit his remain in hospital batu gajah, but i need to finish my paper. senur is one of my favorite juniors in the group. i was their facilitator throughout the whole MAS in jan07. so we are not only friend, but even closer. and they called my abang nazrin. i am pretty close to senur, and when i heard the news, it was a heavy punch to me. i am sad and regret because i lost a friend and noticing that he is a good and humble and courteous junior i know. i can do nothing except accepting the fact that he is no longer in the journey with us, and the most that i can do is to pray for His blessing and equanimity upon his soul.

so thats it. a simple wrap-up for the past few days. i know i should write many because it is only few days left, and i need to store some stories here. but you know lah, only today i can get access here.
i will write more later ok?!