do you still remember my post about kawan vs kata hati?
i have a dilemma again today. nearly simmilar to the case of choosing between friends and what my heart say, but this time it’s a bit different.
when two friend of yours, ask you out, or asking for something, which one would you choose. both of them have approximately same equality (yes i admit i love one side better) to your eyes. you love both of them. you treasure both of them. both having the same point that you can’t refuse them. and you know that when you choose one over the other, the unchosen one will hurt. you will go to the choosen one, but the feeling of guilty to the unchosen is still ripe in your heart. i wish i can entertain both, and even if i can split my body into half, or cut it into pieces, i am willing to do so, just for the sake of my friend.
what should i do? how do i play? the selecting process is hard, but i choose them based on one thing.
whoever i promised them first, gets me. and the unchosen, i’ll explain and i hope they’ll understand. they should understand if they knew me. yes they would do. its not a simple decision for me, and i am hurting myself as well, but this is the best for all right. next time, definitely i will make it to the second one okay.
ok pal, gotta go…
i am backstabbing myself. stupid and pity me…