how to get peace?

below are the things i did when i was emotionally uncontroll (which is now), and at the stake where my head spins and ready to explode.

  1. play, play and play. one way to get rid my stress is by go to the sport complex and play. pingpong, squash, futsal, swim, badminton and anything crossing me. when i am exhausted, and sweating, and hot, the problem will be wash away, hopefully, for a moment.
  2. eat. went out to any good restaurant and eat, as much as i can, until i can see veins, nearly burst on the surface of my belly. makan macam babi yg lapa tak makan setahun.
  3. football. run, snacth and tanduk the ball in the evening. and it is better if i can score or kekeng someone. run until no energy left, and sweats like drain. lebih baik kalau dapat kekeng my best bolasepak buddy, either payehs or jamel or xaki kes kes kes.
  4. korea drama, japanese drama. waste my time on the seats, pointing eyes on the screen, with earphones plugged, fantasizing about the actor and actress. i felt like i was away from this cruel world, submerged into fantasy and script’s world.
  5. sleep like orang mati, or orang yg xde arah tujuan hidup, or orang yang xde masa depan.
  6. be a gay. dh cuba selama 4 hari, mcm xde hasel pon, tggu lg 3 hari nk cukupkan seminggu.

i had tried those, but none works really well. there must be something i could do to make myelf in peace.

dear readers, please give me some advice. dear friend, share some, if you have any.

lawa x desktop aku??

mood: sangap+tertekan


7 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by otai on August 4, 2008 at 6:00 pm

    kalau tensyen..get sambadi to talk..
    i will always be here for u….
    u know lots of people love u kan???
    im coming soon…lets hang out with flolesian..
    aku pon tgh tensyen dgn intern aku skang nih…
    working with bos yg mcm babi…make me really wanna cry…and when i have that kind of feeling…aku teringat kat korang…i really miss korang…other people said they didnt want to go back to UTP…but i really want to be at UTP to be with u guys…apam,cham,cimah,izul n emie =)


  2. Posted by theQueen on August 4, 2008 at 7:00 pm

    aik. mode gay pon boleh ade gmbr awek gaks? kohkoh.

    well hun, stressie wont leave you alone until you deal with the reason. and i don’t think it just gonna disappear like that – so face it or them, whatever. running could only hold you for awhile, thats for sure. a moment of breathe is okay, recommended even – for you to gather your thoughts in dealing with the reason. so do take your time but not forever.

    and always goes back to God. always.

    but don’t feel frustrated if your wish is yet to be granted. its either you deserve something better or the time is in the future. and work for it!

    for every wish has equal price.

    because life is all about living. the moment you give up your life is the time you die even if you’re still walking on this Earth. life will never make sense because its you who hold the sense.

    its you who shape your life. not anyone else.

    and never life itself.

    hence the meaning of live life to the fullest.


  3. Posted by nirzan on August 4, 2008 at 8:20 pm

    thank you for the advice dear sister. i am someone who deals with my problem, but for some of them, i really could not make it, because of faith and cultural restrictions. it seem to trouble me a lot, because of my incapabalities of facing those things. i couldn’t say it loud to anyone, or use my strength to overcome it, it’s just hurting me more. maybe come back to Him is the ultimate solution of all.


  4. Posted by theQueen on August 5, 2008 at 3:38 am

    ..well in that case dear then do pray for the patience to endure all those things. time heals a lot – perhaps them too?

    with regards of cultural restrictions – faith for me is all about Him so it wont apply to what i’m gonna say – i’m sure you already thought of this but somehow i’ll bring it up again, it is worth it to be different for what you believe/want? if it is, then i wouldn’t mind if you go for it. i do know some of our cultures no longer make sense nowadays.

    and hun, just because you’d be different doesn’t make me love you any less..



  5. Posted by lelaki kacak bawah bilik ko on August 5, 2008 at 7:37 am

    ko da kekeng ak da, xhilang stress lagi ke?


  6. Posted by otai on August 6, 2008 at 9:14 am

    believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it’d be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. Eventually feels a lot better than actually…..


  7. Posted by nirzan on August 6, 2008 at 4:45 pm

    lelaki kacak: the kekeng itself doesn’t mean anything, but the fun i spent time with you guys dissolved my sorrow.

    otai: chance comes only for good things, but if it is trouble, or problem, it has to do something with bad things you had done. i belive in letting everything go os the best way to solve problems.


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